I want to thank you for all the beautiful things that you have added to my life. As I look outside the express bus window on my way to work every morning, some days I think about how lucky I am and other days I can feel distraught thinking about the things I don’t have.
Today, I take a step back. One year ago today, my friend, a one time best friend, a one time boyfriend and one time enemy, passed away at 27 years old. I can’t believe it’s a year already. I can’t believe he is gone. One thing I do know is that You, God, are with him and he is free of pain and hurt.
I feel sadness today in my heart, missing the friend I had, missing that sweet boy I know in my 20’s, regretting childish and irresponsible decisions I made at the time of our encounters. I always pray and think, I hope Stephen knows that I never meant to hurt him when I did and that I was a dumb kid, not thinking. I hope he knows that I do think about him and still can’t believe it’s a year and hate that I couldn’t even say goodbye.
God, this is my letter to you in hopes to relay the message to our monkey, Stephen Andrew Lipton. I pray his soul rests in peace and he has the clarity to feel all the love of the people missing him in here on earth. I hope he is smiling.
Thanks for taking care of our friend.
Love you always Lord,