It has been a few weeks, since I wrote last. I noticed in that time, how often you change your views and your mind about what is going on around you. You been keeping yourself occupied but you must know that a band-aid doesn’t heal the wound it only disguises it as being better until the glue wears off.
I know you are confused but you aren’t trying nearly as hard as you should to clear your head. You are still not reaching the goals that you have made for yourself. You feel like trying to find your purpose may be a waste of time but you are wrong. You are just getting lazy. Stop being so lazy! Get off your bottom and get what you deserve. You are waiting around for something to happen and it won’t. I can promise you that.
You want to feel more useful than get involved in something. Take what is yours. There are amble amounts of opportunity in this world. You look at all the rich, young and famous and you ask yourself why not me? Because you work, go home and sleep to do it all over again the next day. What opportunities lie in that? It is stressful to watch and frustrating because nothing holds you back. It is not your location, it’s not your lack of knowledge or talent, it is merely your ambition and your drive that is holding you back. Figure it out, damn it!
I’m frustrated and you’re frustrated and we can’t have this. I know you want more. I know that you want to have a good life with your partner. I know that being financially secure and being able to provide a low stress environment for you and him are what you want more than anything this world has to offer. Please find a way and make it happen. I know your patience is low but you have to keep at and don’t give up. You can see what you want the most in your future but because you don’t have it right now, you are slowly backing down and may even give up, if I don’t talk you out of it.
I know it can be done. I know that this is just a stepping stone in your life. There are so many things that can happen if you just open the door to opportunities.
Try for you, try for me, try for us…